I’m Alive. Promise.
Long time no see. At least it feels that way. I’ve had my head buried in studies on a particular subject matter.
You see, I’m an overthinker. And, I’m sure I’ve made Chris more than crazy on quite a few instances. When he gets tired, I bug my friends and make them crazy. Jesus bless them all who have to listen to my incessant ramblings (or text-ings).
But, I gotta know because I just gotta know. I’m one of those people who hates giving ‘uneducated’ answers for things I should know. So, head stuck in the books.
Right about now you’re sitting there thinking “so, what’s the topic?” Yea. Nope. Not for today. That would start y’all’s own debates. So, we’ll just leave it at that. Sorry. Too soon.
A dear friend sent me this today. “Make us choose the harder right instead of the easier wrong, and never to be content with a half truth when the whole can be won.” (From the West Point Cadet Prayer). So much yes to this.
I hope every single one of us will take the time to look in to anything we hear and study it for ourselves. Even if that means we land on the unpopular side of something.
Studying and researching is tiring and I’ve had moments of ‘Who cares. This is annoying. I’m tired of reading. It’s just easier to stay where I am.’ But then, I don’t sleep.
Y’all, I will be awake at all hours of the night debating topics in my head. Especially when it pertains to topics of the Bible and where those land us in life. My heart stirs and stirs. My head spins and spins. So, I just keep studying.
And that brings me to telling you ‘I’m still alive’. I’m still here. Promise.
This year of my life has come with lots of growing pains. But each one leads to an excitement for the future. An excitement for the purpose God has placed in my heart. A love for people. A love for Jesus and everything he stood for. Everything he lived. Everything he was.
And, anytime something seems to not match up with the character of Jesus, I just have to dive in and find out what’s up.
Studying a topic that really doesn’t relate to me personally has actually pointed out so many points of hypocrisy in my life. And maybe that’s the whole point. More growing pains. More changes. And with that, a greater closeness to the heart of who Jesus was and his plan for us.
Dear friends, learn. Dive in. Don’t just take the easy road. Don’t just accept. Learn. Read. Take the time.
Now, back to the books…
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